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i have this little voice tingling inside of me. this little evil voice.


my english teacher asked a question in class "How many of you would want to go to sleep when you're depressed?"
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i was one of the few people who raised our hands.


everyday when i wake up, i just want to go back to sleep again. i think sleep is the best remedy for depression. or maybe even blogging =)


i wouldn't really call myself a depressed person. no. but more of confused.


there's just a slight reluctancy to go to school. i'm just saying i'm reluctant but i'm not complaining about it. i think my current school(American School of Doha) is a really GOOD school and i know that i should be happy because i was one of the lucky few who got enrolled.


SO ANYWAY, ENOUGH about ME! X)


most of the bloggers i know are pretty happy with their lives, and it's really great to know people who spread the happiness around. =D. but some other people who are really emo express their feelings to the one and only... BLOG!


one thing(or more) i like about blogs is that you get to express how you feel on a blog, just like a diary, but in a certain way... more open. it is allowed to anyone, or maybe for some people who want more privacy, they limit it to only their friends. if you allow it to anyone, you have to tolerate the harsh comments and accept them because everyone have different views.


most teens would HATE it if their parents read their blogs (and i know most of you agree with me XD) but the truth is, my parents read my blog as well as my sister's. i don't have anything to hide from my parents. they are kinda open-minded about everything and they give me support and advice which is good =)


i was forced to write a POEM for english that day and most of my friends found it surprising because i wrote a very gloomy one. and yes, eventhough i hate poems, it's nice to release your anger or sadness by writing it out. or maybe even painting it out. like van gogh. he cut his left ear and commited suicide. >< i'm sorry


here's my poem : The Departure


Your presence, my sadness appears,
The falling rain, the sky so gray,
Your cold eyes evokes my dark fear,
Your painful slaps, I would shed tears,
The recorded act, day by day.


Every blunder, another strike,
Your foul play yet to be rehearsed,
The emerging of my contrite,
My morbid memory, my plight,
For ever in this dreadful curse.


My wounds, the soreness inflicted,
Cannot match my distressing heart,
The depression uninvited,
The gloominess stimulated,
My emotions are torn apart.


Though the sky is no longer blue,
Though the grass is no longer green,
My feelings for you is anew,
When you revealed all that was true,
Your affliction was unforeseen.


Your voice stiff, your eyes spiritless,
The last syllable, your words pure,
The fondness I had to confess,
My feelings I had to suppress,
Were final before your departure.


I thought it was kinda lousy but my parents thought it was deep. OMG i'm so touched! haha. i just copied and pasted all the words i could find off the net.


P.S Don't wanna be the last to know =)